Hi Ladies! Long time no see….it seems like forever since I dropped by. My life has been a bit of a whirlwind recently and I’ve barely had the time to sit down with my laptop and catch up with Blog World. I’ve missed you guys!
I always promised myself that if I ever became pregnant, I would blog about my experiences so that other ladies with a history of anorexia, would be able to drop by and read something, anything, about this supposed magical time of transformation. Well…..I have let myself down. There has been so much going on recently that I have often felt overwhelmed and unable to put into words what I wanted to communicate.
Just the other day, I sat down and cried……and cried. The tears kept on coming for some time, resulting in one of those killer headaches that requires a good sleep to shift. When my mind finally settled down, I opened my journal and wrote a list of important things that have happened in the last 6 months…..
I lost my grandma. I had massive stress a work. I lost my job. I got a new job in a totally new area. I had huge financial strains and big decisions to make. I had serious family troubles. I got married. I became pregnant. I started to struggle with body image and confidence issues again. I had to come off antidepressants. I tried to sell my flat but rented it out instead. I moved house…….
……and I realised that it’s ok to cry because I’m only human. And that gorgeous little face makes everything ok in the world
Hopefully my inspiration to blog will continue to return when we get a new internet connection next week
love x x x