Hi Ladies! Long time no see….it seems like forever since I dropped by. My life has been a bit of a whirlwind recently and I’ve barely had the time to sit down with my laptop and catch up with Blog World. I’ve missed you guys!
I always promised myself that if I ever became pregnant, I would blog about my experiences so that other ladies with a history of anorexia, would be able to drop by and read something, anything, about this supposed magical time of transformation. Well…..I have let myself down. There has been so much going on recently that I have often felt overwhelmed and unable to put into words what I wanted to communicate.
Just the other day, I sat down and cried……and cried. The tears kept on coming for some time, resulting in one of those killer headaches that requires a good sleep to shift. When my mind finally settled down, I opened my journal and wrote a list of important things that have happened in the last 6 months…..
I lost my grandma. I had massive stress a work. I lost my job. I got a new job in a totally new area. I had huge financial strains and big decisions to make. I had serious family troubles. I got married. I became pregnant. I started to struggle with body image and confidence issues again. I had to come off antidepressants. I tried to sell my flat but rented it out instead. I moved house…….
…..and I saw our son for the first time.
……and I realised that it’s ok to cry because I’m only human. And that gorgeous little face makes everything ok in the world 
Hopefully my inspiration to blog will continue to return when we get a new internet connection next week
love x x x
That gorgeous little face is going to make everything right with the world for the rest of your and Phil’s lives!
And I can’t wait to hold the little fella! Looking forward to our girly afternoon tomorrow sweetie. You’re doing great – and we’ll keep planning in lots of treats to look forward to until your gorgeous bundle of joy arrives… and then we’ll plan some more! 
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Oh hun, it is always okay to cry! Sometimes that’s all you can do for a bit and then you can pick yourself back up. You are so strong to have been through all of those difficulties and I think it is wonderful that you are able to see the positive things in your life too. Your son is so lucky to be coming in to the world to such a caring and inspirational mother!
Hope your week goes well and that things are starting to work out
Keep your head up, I know that you will get through this! <3
Beautiful <3
It is definitely okay to cry! In fact, crying only makes you stronger, because all those emotions stuck inside need a way to come out. You have been through so much recently, I hope things start looking up soon. I will be keeping you in my prayers and thoughts!
Emma, you are so brave! It’s nice to see you again and so lovely to see that sweet little face too!
Oh wow! Seeing your baby for the first time like that must be so amazing. What a handsome little boy!
Keep your head up girl that little boy is going to see you as the most important person in the whole entire world no matter what life throws at you! You will always be able to handle it because you’re his mommy!
You have been through so much but as always you are so strong!! I admire you so much. Your son is already such a beautiful little baby, I bet you can’t wait to meet him face to face!
I think those ultra sounds are incredible! It sounds like you’ve been through a lot but you are so strong and you have your little boy now to focus on, can’t wait to hear more about your pregnancy and birth!
My beautiful emma, see, looking at all you’ve been through makes you see how strong you really are…you’ve been through so much and yet you’re still here, still fighting each day. You are so so amazing. And when you do feel like blogging about pregnancy after anorexia, you will be such an inspiration to so many women. But do it in your own time missus, life comes first before blogging
I’m just glad that I know you in person because otherwise I’d miss you!! And I’m especially glad because I’ll get to see your beautiful baby boy!!! <3 Big big hugs sweetie xxxxx
I just want to give you a massive hug!! xoxo