Ok so I’m a worrier. I worry about every.little.thing. Everything. However, now and again something really big crops up, that blows all of these little things into oblivion. Yeah, something happens in life that really is a worry and it puts everything else into perspective……
I’ve sat on numerous occasions, just staring at an empty “new post” screen, trying to decide how to put the last two weeks of my life into words, only to close down the laptop and seek solace from burying my head into my husband’s neck. I’ve read so many half chapters of books, closing the pages after realising that I’ve been going over the same sentence again and again. Needless to say I’ve been distracted.
To cut a long story short, the doctors discovered that our baby is not growing as much as he should be. In fact, far from it. Two weeks ago, we received the news that little man was coming early to avoid stillbirth. As you can imagine, I didn’t know where to put myself. When you imagine having a baby, especially your first, you imagine giving birth to a little cherub, all soft and pink, and seeing their little face in front of yours minutes after their release into the world. What I did not picture was having my tiny, frail child whisked away before catching a glimpse of him………
Phil and I have lived in hospitals for the last fortnight. Scans, consultants, blood tests by the millions, all mixed in with sleepless nights and too many episodes of “Cupcake Wars”. Yet here I am today with my little one wriggling around inside me. “We made it little man. We made it to 35 weeks”.
I have another scan tomorrow. Probably our final scan before delivery. The consultants have been monitoring me closely to get me to the 35-36 week mark, as the risks to the baby are massively reduced from around 34weeks gestation. So….yeah……I might be a mum this time next week!
The recent events have all been smudged into a bit of a blur, however, the thing that stands out clear as day, is that my husband really is the greatest person in my life and I couldn’t have made it through this without him. I am very lucky.
Love to you all,
Emm xoxo
You know were I am if you need me hun ^.^
Thanks Bobbin
big hugs x x x
Be strong hun, both mine were early (mini-me-snr & jnr 3 week and 5 weeks respectively). High care for babies is AMAZING, the nurses are THE BEST. mini-me-jnr who was 5 weeks early was in for about 2weeks before he came home – lots of traveling to and from hospital but SO worth it to get him home strong and healthy. Love & strength to you all xxx
Thank you for your kind comment – it really made me feel so much better
Sending love and hope your way Emma. You can do it, both of you can! You’re being so brave and strong!
Sending love to you all darling – you’re handling this amazingly and I’m sure next week will be fine. Can’t wait to see photographs!xxx
Thinking of you petal, sending you lots of good wishes and positive vibes xxxxx
Sending you all my love and best wishes, good luck next week!
Sending you my love and best wishes, good luck next week!
Oh lovie, I don’t think I can say to you enough how amazing you are <3 You are one of the strongest people I know. Things will be okay I promise…whilst everything may not be perfect, well…life is just one big test for some people..but for those people they appreciate life and the simple things more and know themselves more and that is invaluable. When your little boy is with you at home and healthy and growing up you will see that whilst it was the most difficult thing you've ever been through, it was truly worth it. Happy times are ahead lovie, remember that…you've been through all the tests (that I know of!) life can throw at you now
And I'm with you all the way no matter what 
xxxxx
Oh Emma reading this made me cry, you are so amazingly strong and inspirational! I can’t imagine how it feels but I am so so glad that you have made it through and I just know that you will get through this. I am thinking about you lots and remember I am here for you if you ever need me
Stay strong lovely, I’m sending you heaps of love! <3
Ah sweetie, I pray that everything turns out well for you! x
It must have been such a worrying time, I’m so glad it all sounds ok from your last post… the bit about “we made it little man” and the bit about your husband made me go shivery, in a good way! Lots of love